It has been almost 3 weeks since I last showed up here, and I have missed it so much. The most important reason for this absence was our move in July. We moved across states in US, and all the packing- unpacking-cleaning, consumed my every waking hour. However to be really honest, that was only one part of the reason, not the whole of it. The truth is also that I was distracted, and was having a hard time to focus on anything, because a large part of my mental energy was going towards anxiety, due to the following reasons.
This move is just the beginning of a whole new period of transition for us. There are some big changes that are coming up on the domestic front. For one, my toddler is going to start preschool this fall. This is a relatively big change for me, as D has never been out of my care , and for the first time I have to learn to let go, which is surprisingly harder than I imagined.
In other news, I am finally going to get my work visa, after almost 5 years of being in US. While I have always wanted to do a job, when the opportunity is almost here, I am becoming increasingly anxious about the changes that this will require in our daily routine. Just to be clear, I still want to work (outside of the house). I don’t doubt that at all.
Both these things are positive changes. In-spite of knowing that, my mind was running hoops around all the different scenarios in which things can go wrong. This is very typical of me. I am a huge worry wart, and at that particular time, I was in a desperate need of an antidote to my worries.
That is when I took out my notepad, and wrote down my priorities. Once I did that, I wrote down all the positives that will come along with both of these changes. This exercise helped me clear my head, and forced me to focus on the positives of the situation and my priorities, instead of my largely baseless worries.
Such a strange relationship we have with Change, don’t we? More often than not, changes are simply a result of conscious choices that we make. Even knowing this, they can get pretty difficult to handle. I feel that the struggle is mostly mental, which is due to our natural tendency to fear the unknown, and resist anything that challenges the status quo.
The thing that is even stranger is that most of this mental battle can be successfully fought and resolved just by putting pen to paper. This is especially true for me.
“When you start putting pen to paper, you see a side of your personal truth that doesn’t otherwise reveal itself in conversation or thought. “ – Anthony Kiedis
I would love to hear from you guys. How do you deal with anxiety and baseless worries? Do you think that the fear of unknown can make us anxious even about positive changes? What is your go-to stress buster?
In my teens, I used to sleep it off. However, the only thing that sleeping really helped in, was getting me slightly disoriented for a while. 😛 It never solved anything. Writing is more fool-proof. 😀